Roller Coaster -- Yup, that is the best way to describe each day. There are amazing highs like our Poker Night.....There are also some lows. The seemingly endless piles of paperwork and waiting on various agencies, let alone the heart ache. Then when you least expect it, HE whispers to you and you are blessed....
Two nights ago we had another FUNdraiser....I wasn't able to stay long, but I heard that the Poker night was actually quite fun. I love fellowship, I really do. When we began this process, I never dreamed of how much genuine fellowship would come out of it. The Poker night was just that. The hubby told me how multiple people noted the great time of fellowship. I love that we can have a party, do things we love, and still work towards our goal of bringing home our little girl.
However coming into that night, I was struggling. I was frustrated, I cried when my son fell down (and he is clumsy...this isn't out of the ordinary). It was a crazy, and I mean crazy, day. One of those days where you are running from one event to the next, yup, one of those. As I drove away from a wonderful birthday party for one of B's best little lady friend, I cried...alot....I was exhausted...I had reached my breaking point.
I composed myself, and then I got hubby's call...
....and HE whispered to me.....see, it is ok
The Lord has been so good to us. Early on in this journey, when my hubby wasn't even on board yet, HE showed me our daughter in my lap. I knew from that point on we would adopt a little girl. Of course, HE only showed me this, which was wonderful, but I would love for hubby to see her too. On Saturday, HE showed hubby as well.
You were on the plane with a boy and a girl. You were showing them a photo album of the boys, saying 'These are your brothers.' There was a boy and girl. Then you got off the plane and I saw them for the first time. There was this awkward exchange because they were attached to you. You are their momma.
Will it happen exactly like this? Who know. What I do know is that when HE gave this glimpse to hubby, it gave him peace. When hubby shared it with me, all the tears washed away and I was overcome with utter peace.
Those are the moments....the whispers....that make it OK!
3 comments:
Awe Katie- brought tears to my eyes. I am so thrilled that you were both given a glimpse of the Lord's desires :-)
Katie, that was amazing! I think about my little niece (and possibly others) quite often! I can't wait until you bring her (them) home!
this is lovely Katie. I love to see how God is working in your life.
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